Among all of this stress and extra activity, I have had some good times. Despite being tired and ready to quit everything, I took a step back and looked up. I realize the smallest things that make me smile. The little jokes I hear or the most basic compliments. The smile from an old friend. The encouragement from a loved one… Right now, it’s so easy to be negative. I have a whole life ahead of me and all I can think is “How am I going to do this?” The truth is I should be grateful that I have time to even think about my future. I’m fortunate enough not to have to worry about the now and get opportunities to dream about what’s to come. I remember just a few years ago I would compare myself to my peers. Why don’t we have that? Why aren’t we like them? What I realized is that material does not breed happiness. Money, as nice as it is to have, does not solve every problem. Sometimes what matters is so much more simple. I’m sure the poorest people are some of the happiest. If you don’t think you have something to live up to, you can be comfortable with just enough. I don’t know what to really think right now. I feel like I get no time to myself…
I wish that humans weren’t so thoughtful, sometimes.
And all I have to say is today was a good day! I should just go with my gut, and be nice to everyone. Spite gets you nowhere.